سؤال مجهول

I came back from another country that I miss you, hoping to get closer to you and let me down in your absence and not excuse me for spending my stupid, mindless, and nervous, and in my dire situation, you left me alone, I suffer, I regret and I watch you everywhere. Do you remember? I embraced you in your weakness and pain? I am writing to you this message and you do not know me, but I will reach my goal and face you and turn into a true joker and I will make you wish for my proximity and I will show you that you are not stronger than me to rise because you have come to me in your worst case